Tuesday, March 22, 2011

To Darius, Son of Esther

You are the son she never asked for
Never wanted

You were born to an unwilling mother
Forced to leave her husband for your father

A yiddeshe mamme
With a child who considered himself of another faith

Did you ever hear your mother crying?
Did you ever stop to think of her pain?

She gave up everything for her nation
A nation that you did not call your own.

I often think of your mother's hidden pain
As her name reveals, Esther was adept at hiding

And I hide, too.
Perhaps those monthly lost chances
would have turned out to be you.


Devorah said...

That is a very scary thought.

Thinking in a positive way - the way you ended this off...know that your tears are not in vain. I don't know if this is what you want to hear but perhaps Hashem is saving you from something far worse.

I'm still hoping and praying for you!

Anonymous said...

I think he *did* feel her pain--wasn't he the one who finally gave permission to the Jews in E'Y to rebuild the second Bais Hamikdosh?
The truth is, we often don't know how things are meant to work out or the reason why, though sometimes we do get a glimpse much later....